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28/08/2007

Patient My Ass!

Wow, we are having a major storm right now. It's raining, windy, and hailing like crazy! I like a good thunderstorm now and then, but this is insane.

Not much going on here. I have school today, which I'm dreading like the plague. My classes are so mind numbingly boring I could scream. But, I will drag myself there and type and listen to the lecture and not gouge my eyes out with a pen. I'm really hating school right now, in case you can't tell.

The Drunken Midgets are doing well. They are very excited to be starting school next week, and I am thrilled too. I will have my house back again! Yay!!! I love them dearly, but let me tell you, they are driving me crazy!

My meetings have been going well. I have met some really nice people and I'm slowly learning how to live life without chemicals. It's hard, but worth it. I'm trying to be patient and remind myself I haven't been sober for that long, but I'm a little frustrated that my life is still a bit unmanageable. But, admiting I am powerless over drugs and alcohol wasn't a magic wand that miraculously waved all my troubles away. The problems are still there, but hopefully they will start to get better and I'll be able to handle them better sober. I just have to be patient I guess.

Patience has never been easy for me. I'm an addict damn it, I want instant gratification! I want it NOW!

And they say that the reward of patience is... more patience. What's up with that? You mean I don't get the Grand Prize behind door number three? If I'm going to have to patiently wait for something I want a damn parade in return! It's only fair!!!

But, as my father was very fond of pointing out to me, Life isn't fair.

Fuck.

Who made up that rule?

Saw some pretty good bumper stickers the other day...

I found Jesus. He's drunk in my backseat.

I found Jesus. Have you seen my car keys?

I found Jesus. Will you guys quit losing him?

K, well, that's all I got for now.

Laters!

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